“Why did you choose to become human?”
That’s the big question I asked myself today while I was lying down on my energy healer’s massage table…
While he was helping me restore the balance in my body and I was meditating, I caught myself crying like a baby wondering why I had chosen to incarnate here, in this body that I so often feel trapped in, and why I had chosen to experience life as a human, with all its traumas & pains…
I felt the sadness of being far from my original home & being trapped in this strange “human experiment” hitting hard in my stomach then climbing up to my heart, my throat and finally getting released with my tears.
❣ Why is it so hard to be human?
❣ Why is it not all sunshines, love and chocolate cakes?
❣ Why are all our life decisions so heavy of consequences?
❣ Why are we choosing to feed a society that doesn’t even promote our best individual & collective interests?
When I explore my inner world, I see & feel so much more than this 3D human life.
I see an infinite ballet of light & shadows dancing around me.
I feel beings of all shapes, colors, energies & dimensions living together behind my mind’s eye, evolving in all those exciting & intriguing worlds… worlds without physics, worlds without frontiers.
I feel the Universe inside each one of my cells and everywhere around me, all-encompassing & almighty.
So why are our human lives looking so small in comparison?
Why are most of us blindly chasing money, fame, security, social status, wearing false masks, avoiding truth, ignoring integrity & self-introspection and seeking happiness outside of us?
When all we need to do is to look inside ourselves to find the Universe & Unconditional Love.
Then, it hit me.
What if I chose to be human to connect with the Universe in a new UNIQUE way?
What if I chose to be human to be free to wander & get lost while exploring my connection to the Universe?
???? I could have been a goat. ( ???? )
???? I could have been a rock.
???? I could have been a tree.
???? I could have been a car, for crying out loud!
But I chose to be human because I wanted to be free to find my own way back to the Universe.
I wanted to experience the difference between making a decision with my head & making a decision with my heart.
I wanted to experience the difference between being a follower in a society that was never built for the benefit of ALL humans & being the lead actress in the story of my life, not caring about fitting in said society.
I wanted to experience love, pain, anger, shame, fear, surprise, envy to be able to choose the ones that would make me a better person, and be more of service to myself & to others.
I wanted to share about life, love & the Universe in my own voice and with my own words.
I wanted to experience pain to understand how to see the beauty in the smallest things.
I wanted to experience life as a human because I wanted to participate in helping humans ascend to the next level of their collective journey.
And to do that, I needed to understand what it means to live as a human.
Empathy & compassion are bridges between souls.
The best way to help & love humans is to understand their potential, their short-comings & their strengths.
So I had to live it myself.
And the fact that it’s at times so hard to be human becomes completely irrelevant.
Because it’s a choice I made to enrich my Soul journey and therefore, participate in the ascension & expansion of the Whole Universe, as a collective of Souls.
When I realized that, I felt calm & a deep sense of purpose invade my body.
I felt important & humbled at the same time.
I felt that life was actually not so complicated.
After all, I don’t have anything specific to achieve in this human lifetime.
I don’t have to DO or to HAVE anything specific.
I just have to live this life. And that’s enough.
Appreciate life for what it is.
Find beauty in the smallest, minimal things… (See what I did there? ????)